omg!!!

ok so I know that this has absolutly nothing to do with my paper, but I am in a rough patch in my life right now. I just broke up with my boyfriend of 18 months because he wasn't giving me the attention i needed. i know that it sounds ridiculous, but i feel like if he truly cared about me he would want me around more than what he acted. dont get me wrong i love him to death but at the same time i can not be with someone that doesn't care about anything. i am a vary goal driven oriented person and he just doesn't give a flip about anything. i know this is kind of wierd but he is still my best friend. we have been friends forever and now that we are broken up our friendshiop has only gotton stronger. I care about him to the point that I want him to be happy, nad vice versa. everyone else thinks that this is a problem that we are still best friends, but I don't think it is a bad idea. I love my friends but at the same time i just wish that they would could understand. I am so confused with my own feelings so i guess i cant expect them to understand as well. I just want him to know how much I still care about him. I am happy though, this is a step forward..its just a hard step to make...