poem 1

Come to me in my dreams, and thenBy day I shall be well again.For then the night will more than payThe hopeless longing of the day.Come, as thou cam'st a thousand times,A messenger from radiant climes,And smile on thy new world, and beAs kind to others as to me.Or, as thou never cam'st in sooth,Come now, and let me dream it truth.And part my hair, and kiss my brow,And say My love! why sufferest thou?Come to me in my dreams, and thenBy day I shall be well again.For then the night will more than payThe hopeless longing of the day.

poem 2

If questioning would make us wiseNo eyes would ever gaze in eyes;If all our tale were told in speechNo mouths would wander each to each.Were spirits free from mortal meshAnd love not bound in hearts of fleshNo aching breasts would yearn to meetAnd find their ecstasy complete.For who is there that lives and knowsThe secret powers by which he grows?Were knowledge all, what were our needTo thrill and faint and sweetly bleed?Then seek not, sweet, the "If" and "Why"I love you now until I die.For I must love because I liveAnd life in me is what you give.


dont you just love how expresive poems can be? sometimes i need to escape my own mind and just drift away off inot lala land. read these and see what they can do for you too! i wanted to show all of you how stress relieving they can realy be....

moving....

wow, ok so my first year as a college student has come to an end!!! i knew going off to college i would have to meet new people and have new friend and do new things but i have to say i never expected something quite like this. i have met the best friends anyone coul evere ask for...we are all so different yet the same in some odd way. we eem to work like a family and i wouldn't have it any other way!!! i have so mnay memories from this year that were literally the times of my life. some say high school is the best time of your life, they were ohh so wrong college is way way better!!! i have so mnay memories from running through the fountain on campus at two in the morning to going to my first college tailgate to going to the frat houses to staying up for days studying for finals just to repeat the cycle all over again. my friends and i went to panama city for spring break and it was so much fun!!! it was our first treip somewhere for an entire week without any parents or any kind of rules...it got crazy sometimes but it was so much fun! i really wish there was a spy cam on me that trip just so we coud watch how retarted we looked! we wore our bathing suits the entire freaking time! we got ready t gout like twice and never actually made it to the club!!! my friend hannah fell and seperated her collar bone and got a huge fat lip! it was the funniest thing ever. i am so glad i came here. me and two of my best friends got a house close to campus and will be moving thursday! i can not wait we are actually growing up, we just went off to college alone and now we are going to live in house alone. thank go for friends like mine without them i really dont know what i would do with myself!!!

love?

My feelings right now:
Love, such a mysterious word. It has been tangled around so much that I think some have forgotten its true meaning. Some have even forgotten how to love, and that is just plain sad. Although there are those that have tried to love and have been rejected. Those that can not help but feel that certain feeling where you know you would do anything in the world for them, and sadly knowing that you are nothing more to them than another person to spend time with and have fun playing around. To that person you are nothing more than a page in the book, where as to you this is the whole book. Why is it that one must be hurt so many times and yet still not truly know what it feels like to share a bond so pure, so true that noting could come between them. Not even distance or the wind, nothing.
i wrote this in a time of confusion in my life. i was hurt by many past relationships and wondering where my future would end up. i can only hope that the one i love can return the favor to me someday. i want to be te princess in the fairy tales that has prince charming come sweep me off my feet. i know that is a little far fetched but it would be nice if love was that easy. it seems like sometimes love is not enough, there has to be something more. you can love someone with all your heart and they can feel the same towards you, but somethimes its just not ment to be, and that is what hurts so bad.

just thinking....

Just Thinking

Do you ever wonder why you fall in love with someone? Or what it is all about? I mean there has to be more to it than fall, get hurt, fall get hurt fall….you see what I am saying? When do we fall, fall and fall? Sooner or later it seems that everyone hits rock bottom. Some just block out all feelings and soon they change into someone completely different than who you initially fell in love with. Why do we all do that? Because we are all changing and all of us have had some kind of traumatic effect to mold us into the individuals we are today and five years from now we will be different from now because something will happen to us to change our perspective on life. We will not be so oblivious to the world around us, and that can rob you of your childhood innocence. Why should we have to conform to do what others say works? Yeah there are a lot of very successful business men and women in our world today, but how often do you hear of someone finding their true love? Will it last? Will it fail? Will it change over time? Of course it will change and grow, but will it change for the better or will it become stagnant? If there is one thing I have always wanted in life it was to become a very wealthy, successful, independent woman, but now my outlooks have changed. Now all I want is a happy family that only seems to get better everyday…

12 page paper...

I never thought that I would actually have so much to say about my topic of health care crisis in america. i guess after researching it for so long that i have developed a strong attitude toward the subject. this could be the one thing i am passionate enough about to go vote this upcoming election. i really do want to follow it and keep up with the bills passed on this issue. i am interested to see if the people in capital hill see this issue the way i am or if they are complete idiots. i have never actually gotton into a paper as much as i have this one. my boyfriend and i actually had a thirty minute conversation on how it could work, what would fail and he got me really heated up when he didnt agree with the way i saw my plans. it is kind of out of character for me to get so hot over someone not agreeing with me, normally i would just shrug it off, but now this is a topic i feel so strongly about that i can not just let people think sonething when i have done the research to prove them wrong, and show them how horrible the system really is today. i hope that everyone in our class has learned about thier topic as much as i have. i also hope that they have become a more rounded person, because i realy think this essay has helped me in so many ways that i had never seen before. starting out i was really dreading this class but now looking back on it i am glad i did this topic for my paper, and i really did enjoy this class.

dreams

do you ever wonder where your dreams come from, and what they actually mean? last night is when my boyfriend and i talked and decided tat he is going to dallas and when he does thats it for us ofr now anyways. and after our conversation i couldnt help but think about how upset it makes me to picture him with someone else. then i started imagining it and thats when i fell asleep. i had this dream that me and him and a bunc of people were hanging out and he was all cuddled up with another girl right in front of me and i litterally got sick to my stomach, in my dream i ran out of the room threw up and walked back into the room and acted like nothing had happened. i then demanded the vodka and chugged it...all of it! and went on with the rest of the night. this disturbbed me when i woke up because a) i pictured him with someone else b) i became a bulimic c) i also became an alcoholic and d) i woke up feeling like this could actually happen in the future. i honestly dont think this is an normal dream for someone to have the night she finds out her bf for 2 yrs is moving, is it? so i tried to find in online at dream moods.com and there is all kinds of stuff on therer but nothing about my dream. so this got me thinking, is this how i see myself handling the problem? this was far from a good solution! i am ruely upset right now about how my subconscious is dealing with the pain, and pressure right now. this can not be healthy.

finals blow!

so life always has to take a nasty turn right before finals...i don't understand it at all. it is like God is saying i know your really busy and you need a clear head to think and focus on finals but i am going to throw this at you along with everything else going on. so what i am talking about is my relationship. my boyfriend and i have been together for almost two years now, two freaking years is a long ass time. we are perfect, actually i think i love him more now than ever before. or maybe i am just realizing it. well he got a business opportunity offered to him, which is great and all but it is in DALLAS!!! freaking 7 hrs away from here! and i love it here, i am not about to go follow his ass. but at the same time i did the whole long distance thing and lets just say its not for me. it really wears on ur relationship after time and that is the lat thing i want to do is have my bf for 2 yrs suddenly become nothing more than a phone call to say goodnight. ohh yeah and did i mention that we were best friends before so it just makes things that much harder? yeah, my best friend for about 7 yrs and boyfriend for 2 is moving away during FINALS!!! ughh...i am so upset i dont even know what to do with myself. part of me wants to strangle him for gong, but another part is ahppy for him, and all at the same time im hurt so badly. i want to think that this is for the better and that everything will work out for the best, and who knows we might end up back together again, or maybe he will go and realize that he cant stand it there. thats actually what im kinda going for. but i can not sit around and wait on his ass to come back, so i must move on with my life. it just sucks because i love him and he loves me and we both know that but now isnt our time....it just isn't ment to work right now.